You're Gonna Miss This

Thursday, July 28, 2011

You're Gonna Miss This


With my daughter's half birthday right around the corner (oh em gee I almost have a one and a half year old, when did this happen) I have been UBER emotional lately. AND the fact that I'm a crazy hormonal pregnant woman and the thought of my days of just 'Mommy and Stella' time are going to be few and far between. Ha, I'm just an emotional roller coaster. And this morning on the way to work flipping through the stations one station had an announcement to make. One of the morning shows hosts is pregnant and she was reading a letter she wrote to her daughter about being a big sister. And yep, you guessed it, this cold hearted broad, lost it. PTL I was in the car by myself, because as most of you know, I don't cry, ESPECIALLY in front of people. And then after she read her letter they played this 'You're Gonna Miss This' by Trace Adkins and well, you guessed, I continued to sob. Ugh, why am I such a softie?! But no joke, you speak of this to no one, I Cassie, do not cry. End of story. Ha, kidding.

But honestly. Every night my kid wants to play outside. And of course it's still like 99 degrees. And every night Momma is the one to play outside with her. All 30 extra pounds of me. As I push her around the yard in her pink car, sweat drips off of me and I shoot glares to my husband who is sitting in the recliner in the AC watching TV cursing him under my breath. Or every night when she only wants Momma to put her to sleep and the only way she is comfortable is right on top of my belly and I'm ridiciously uncomfortable and I just want to be laying in my bed. I really need to sit back and think, "I'm gonna miss this." WAY to soon is she not going to want me to do this. Way to soon am I not going to be the person she WANTS to hang out with.

I mean have you ever listened to the lyrics in this song? "You're gonna want this back. You're gonna wish this days, hadn't gone by so fast. These are some good times, so take a good look around. You may not know it now, but you're gonna miss this." And I am, SOOOO much. I was just reading Beth's blog today and she said something that was so true, a quote about the first year's of motherhood, "The shortest years with the longest days." So true. How is my baby already almost one and a half years old?! How is she almost a big sister?! How is so such a little "person" already?! These 100 degree days and gallons of sweat I drip every night while playing outside are nothing. I need to start thinking that way a lot more often, because I am so gonna miss this.

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Kim Luke said...

They replayed Annie reading her letter to Abby and played the song again on my way to work-- and of course Landon was in the backseat already upset about daycare, and I sobbed right along with him. Ugh! definitely a huge eye opener. and in her letter she said she secretly hopes its a boy, because she knows god can't give her a little girl already more perfect than the one she already has! ahhh! more tears!!
Love you Stella, and the little girl that you have become. It has been an amazing year and a half with you in my life! :) you fill every one's hearts with so much love and happiness! your little blonde curls melt my heart! love you sooooooooo much!! :))

sblind2 said...

I hear you!! In the mornings Brody likes to lay on my chest and drink his milk and just cuddle with me....occasionally looking up and smiling and saying "mommy" I don't mind NOT working out on those mornings....

Anonymous said...

Geez, way to make all the preggos cry today! It is such a emotional time for so many of us going through the samething. Its crazy to think about loving another baby just as much as you already love the one you hold in your arms everyday.
-Lara

Adrien said...

Oh my goodness, I have so been to that place and back. And it brings back tears just thinking about it!

Beth said...

Aw - thanks for the shout-out!

There's definitely something in the water - why are we so sappy all of a sudden? LOL.... now I know why my mother sobbed her eyes out at my HS graduation - I am turning into my mother :)

Cassie said...

Beth - too funny, I just laughed out loud. lol. Yes, we are all turning in to sonbbing moms, just like ours moms. lol.

Kim - awwww, thank you. totally made me tear up. you're the best bff!!

Jackie said...

I have been thinking the same thing to lately....As much as I love to see her grow and change its just happening so so fast. She needs to slow down just a bit...it feels like she just learned how to roll over and now she is just all over...breaks my heart my baby girl is growing up so fast!