Thursday, May 11, 2017

Being A Mom

mother’s day is right around the corner.
crazy to believe this is my 7th mother’s day.
which is nothing compared to so many others out there.
but still hard for me to believe that i have been winging this mom thing for seven years now.
and that’s exactly it, totally winging it.
i mean do any of us really know how to do this?
every day i lay down and think, i shouldn’t have done that, or said that, or i should have been there sooner, or made this, or bought that, or had them wear this, or i wonder how they felt when that happened.
it never stops.
let’s face it – we have a lot on our plates.
it’s a constant worry.
or the days when you turn into ursela at the ending of little mermaid.
and then you regret every.single.thing you said.
and you just lay there waiting for them to wake up in the morning so you can kiss them and tell them you’re sorry and you love them so much.

i remember the sleepless nights.
which seem so long ago.
and the fresh new smells.
and the carrying them everywhere.
so many days i miss that.
and so many days i remember my kids can feed and bathe themselves.
all while i can sit on the couch for two peaceful minutes before someone yells for me to make sure they got all the conditioner out of their hair, or they need me to wash their back.
and i am up and back in mom mode again.
but honestly, i couldn’t imagine it any other way.
7 years ago if you would have said my favorite job is being a mom i would have been hesitate.
i never saw myself as the “mom” type.
but man i love it.
i absolutely love this job.
every single hard and stressful part about this job.
i love it.
i cry daily because of something awesome that they did, something really sweet they said, or a random act of kindness they did for a friend/neighbor/classmate/anyone.
trust me there are days i also cry because i feel like a total failure.

being a mom makes me proud.
but it also makes me scared, nervous, and total worrywart.
always hoping you are planning the best future for them.
teaching them good life lessons.
teaching them hard life lessons.
teaching them in general.

and then there are days when get a random “mom, when you are old i will push your wheelchair into church for you.”
and its oddly weird but perfectly genuine.
makes you think, how in the world did that thought cross their mind?
and all you can do is smile, thank them, cry (because that’s all i do), and remember that everything is going ok.

so to all the moms out there who read this post.
you’re not alone.
we are all winging it.
we are all cry baby worry warts.

i hope your mother’s day is full of every single ounce of love you deserve.

even if you only get to sit down for two seconds.

Wednesday, May 10, 2017

What I Wore

linking up with the pleated poppy for what i wore.

it's no secret 75% of my wardrobe is black, black and more black.
BUT occasionally i wear an outfit out of my realm.
exhibit a.
i loved this outfit.
nothing makes you feel better than walking into panera with a freebie on your rewards card and a compliment from the cashier.
nice little pick me up i have to say.
navy wide legs capris from old navy.
v-neck blouse from small town style.
heels from payless.

let's talk bralettes.
i was timid.
didn't know if a 30 year old mom should wear one.
so i started with the "sporty" version.
and..... i like it!
whole outfit from small town style.
and these black nikes are like a daily in my house.

my go to spring friday out.
aka - when i actually get to wear jeans to work.
i love this outfit.
just heavy enough if it's cool in the morning.
but not too winter dark.
win win for everything.
and a head to toe look from small town style.

for more outfits head over to my instagram and follow along.

Tuesday, May 9, 2017

Monday, May 8, 2017

Weekend Wrap Up

hi!  whew – we are still here.
we have been busy.
still are.  but aren’t we all?!
school, summer sports, house projects, work, dogs, weddings, birthday.
we have been on the go.
and this weekend was no different.
we soaked up every opportunity we could get and worked our butts off outside.
so let’s recap.
we tore up our driveway on Good Friday with plans to pour a new driveway the following weekend.
it rained.
and rained some more.
hell, it even flooded parts near us.
and three weeks later it finally dried up and we got a driveway.
i mean who gets this excited over concrete?
ha – right.
but seriously.
i feel like a normal person again.
the countdown is on for cure time so we can drive on the baby.
ok, so besides getting excited about concrete, who writes this much about concrete?
anyways….. on to the fun pretty things.
we got the new garage doors, shutters (even though the color is slightly off) and pergola a few weeks back.
in came landscaping, which made a HUGE difference and then the driveway.
it is a major relief to have this project done.
and a much needed facelift for the front of our house.

so, on to the weekend.
once the guys left on Friday we all stood around and ooo-ed and ahhhh-ed over the driveway.
and then we headed out with some friends to celebrate cinco de mayo.
(and finally having a driveway).
the next morning jon was on clean-up crew at the house while I went and had a yard sale with my mother-in-law.
once we were back in town we got to work.
i spent a good part of my afternoon watering the concrete (yes that’s a real thing that people have to do) and shoveling  SO.MUCH.DIRT.
ugh, manual labor is no fun.
we made a huge dent in the pile and I am pretty sure by 8:15 p.m. I couldn’t keep my eyes open anymore.
Straight to bed I went.
sunday morning we were up early and ready to go.
we had a nice breakfast date then headed to home depot.
we ooo-ed and ahhh-ed over stuff we wanted but didn’t need.
but man oh man did we want it.
then we took some time for ourselves and just took a drive.
we love just looking at houses.
dreaming.  talking.  getting ideas.
once we got back to town we stopped at ace to get some ferns.
we hung those up on the pergola and called it done.
ok well not yet, we still having lighting to go.
there’s always something.
we moved to the backyard for some projects.
we are getting the pool ready and we can’t wait!!
it will be pool season oh so soon!!
once the kids got back from their dad’s jon and henry went to see a boy movie.
it was right up henry’s alley!
stella and i had a girls night.
much needed for everyone.
and now here we are with Monday.
last full week of school!!
have a great week!

feels good to be back!

Wednesday, March 8, 2017

Exterior Renovation Plans

it's no secret that we don't have the most attractive house on the block.
but it's also no secret that we aren't afraid to tackle a good project.
i have to admit - buying this house wasn't exactly my choice.
but it made the kids and jon most happy and them being happy makes me happy.
i was scared of the exterior.
i was scared of the unknowns.
i was scared of the pool.
i was scared of the uneven garages.
i was scared of the corner lot.
so many things.
a part of me wanted a house we could just move into and live and be.
and that was our plan with this house.
until things started happening.
and small projects turned into big projects.
and our list just keeps getting bigger and bigger.
before we moved we had already met with a contractor about making the front of our home better.
it needed MAJOR curb appeal.
notice the bold large all caps font.
i don't even know where to begin.
the red landscaping bricks that don't match.
all of that landscaping rock - ugh, my heart belongs to mulch.
and all that dead space over the garages.
don't even get me started on the window placement.
BUT - we knew that there was hope.
and we were ready to bring hope to this house that we know we are going to be at for at least the next ten years.
our contractor showed us some renderings.
and we were in love!
but with love comes a pretty big dollar value.
whew - but this gave us a good starting point.
from here we developed a plan:
new garage doors with windows.
fix the uneven garages - which is structural.  
and i pretty much think the word structural also rhymes with expensive.  
i mean geesh.  
but it's a must.  
adding the overhang was just trying to "cover up" the uneven garages which wasn't going to get us anywhere.
especially staying here for the next ten years.
so we needed to make that happen.
ok, back to the plan
new shutters too.
the garage doors and shutters will be in a chocolate color.
i know - so much brown - but adding any other color scares me.
the garages will also be trimmed out in white.
which will help break up all of the brown on the bottom too i hope.
as far as over the garages.
we needed something - BAD.
the overhang is great, but adding the over hang meant changing the roof above the portico too.
which meant more money.
and the portico was only a few years old.
so we thought, how about a garage pergola.
have you ever called around to places and asked if they sell garage pergolas.
they look at you like you have 6 heads.
in fact a certain big chain store proceeded to tell me i have a very odd request and my design style seemed off.  well i will just go ahead and cut up my card for your store Mr. Menard....
and take my off design style somewhere else.
so image this:
what a beauty!!
i am super excited for this to get installed.
we are working with a local vinyl fencing company and they are custom making this.
because the mile and a half that spans over our garages ins't anywhere near custom.
shocking - i know.  lol.
and then after that comes concrete, new retaining wall and stone on the columns.
all quite a ways down the road.....
but in the plan.
what i really can't wait for is the most important part of all of this.
with a new driveway comes one very important feature.
an in-ground basketball hoop.
once that is up - my life is complete.
let the one on ones commence.

kidding - landscaping - ugh, landscaping is next.
my black thumb is thrilled.....
march is going to be a busy month for the exterior of our home.
fingers crossed it all turns out good!

Tuesday, March 7, 2017